Adventures in Mexico vs. Life in Chicago: A Reflection on Career and Stability

After spending a significant part of my adult years residing outside the United States, predominantly in Asia for seven years and Mexico for two, I began to contemplate the idea of putting down roots.

Raised in Northeast Ohio, I realized I had not stayed there for any extended period since reaching adulthood at 18, except for a brief pandemic stint.

Although I cherished my overseas lifestyle, relishing the cultural immersion and reduced living costs, a part of me yearned for steadiness.

Moreover, a sense of solitude crept in, coupled with a tinge of jealousy towards friends at home achieving life milestones such as marriage, homeownership, and parenthood.

Taking a Leap with a Chicago Job Offer

Believing fate was on my side, I eagerly accepted a social media position at a small nonprofit news organization in Chicago in early 2021.

Though I was entrenched in life in Mexico back then, the allure of the vibrant Midwest metropolis prompted a swift transition. Regrettably, my expectations were not met.

The Reality of a New Beginning

Though the job allowed for remote work, residing in Chicago was mandatory, and I often found my responsibilities overwhelming. Consistently, I felt inadequate.

By April, emotional breakdowns became a daily occurrence—whether at work, during meals, or post-working hours.

To cope, I embraced breathing techniques before engagements and began a regimen of anxiety medication.

However, by summer, my tenure at the company had ended, and my optimism for swift employment was soon dashed.

A Daunting Job Search

Relentlessly, I scoured opportunities, customizing countless applications and networking tirelessly, yet mostly confined myself to my apartment with little success to show.

In November, the peace was shattered by the loss of my brother, rendering all else insignificant.

Coping with Overwhelming Loss

Grief hit with a ferocity I hadn't anticipated, leaving me adrift and disoriented.

Just prior to his passing, I had recommitted to socializing, revisiting dating apps, and engaging in nightlife activities. Afterward, nothing seemed to hold my attention.

The simplicity of relationships abroad was sorely missed, while efforts to maintain or rekindle relationships in Chicago proved challenging given the city's vastness and the evolving nature of its residents' goals.

Silver Linings amidst Challenges

Despite adversities, the previous year brought opportunities, such as writing a self-help book on sober curiosity and securing a temporary university position.

Nevertheless, Chicago's high living expenses made financial stability elusive, leaving my future uncertain after my teaching contract concluded in May.

Therefore, a return to Ohio signaled the next stage of my life as I ponder potential paths like graduate school or revisiting my life in Asia. I'm still searching, but Chicago hasn't proven to be the answer.